me and my big mouth |

The strange case of the secret eater

March 5. Day 248.

Another day of asking just to ask. Some days I shoot for the moon, and others, I reach for the filth between my toes and stop stretching because my lower back hurts…

I was sitting in Starbucks, writing. My neighbor was grading papers. I asked, “Are you grading papers?”

He replied yes. We talked [...]

me and my big mouth |

Window Seat?

February 17. Day 232.

From Athens I had a few hours to kill in Amsterdam, so I rushed to my mom’s favorite chocolate shop to pick up a few of her beloved truffles, crossed over to the post office to mail some twizzlers for E, and sampled a croissant in a cozy cafe with an open [...]

immaterial gains (knowledge or access) |

Am I fat and sad, or do I just look the part?

February 6. Day 221.

A man walked up to me tonight holding a stack of books and he offered me two of his treasures. A how-to manual for lowering your cholesterol in 8 weeks, and a faded hardback from 1977 about… jogging.

He was trying to get rid of them, he didn’t manage to sell them to [...]

immaterial gains (knowledge or access) |

Are you happy?

January 31. Day 215.

“Three frustrated women!!!””

These was La Divina’s conclusion, to myself and a 24-year-old visitor from Germany who’s in town for an internship, after we each lamented all day that we have no idea what to do with our lives. We’re all at transitional points — about to graduate or between jobs — and [...]

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Do you have a favorite balcony?

January 23. Day 207.

Like anyone obsessed by her area of study, I tend to build my dissertation topic — balconies — into my everyday conversations. For example…

Friend: On the sixth night, we stayed at a gorgeous hotel that was overlooking the Taj Mahal, and our pillows were made of this gossamer thread that was actually [...]